You know what, I've just found that I am... pregnant!!!
Yeah, if you know me in person, you might know that I'm not someone who really desires a baby. My first two years of marriage was filled by all the questions about the baby, and it completely drove me crazy!
I don't know how my feeling was when I got the fact that I got pregnant. Happy, sad, confused, and in between.. Yeahh.. I'm happy because this is such a gift. But I'm sad and confused at once because many dreams won't be achieved immediately. But yeah, however, I'll take this as a great blessing from God. So many couples yearn to have a child but for many reasons, they can't. So I have to be thankful, right? :)
One thing I also am thankful for is that I got no morning sickness or anything sort of that. I am healthy and I am feeling good, have no big changes on my body, even till I often ask myself 'Do I really pregnant?' hahaha. Just make sure..
Honestly, this is one of unexpected things I find in my journey. But I try to have no regret in life. Whatever happens in my life, happens for a reason. So I can stand still and keep walking however the circumstance is.
Please pray for me, friends. It's a new experience for me. I am really newbie in this! I've never imagined myself being pregnant but I am ready for what will happen. Although me and my hubby hadn't planned this child yet, but I'm sure God has planned it even before we did. Sometime I worry about things relating to this pregnancy (most of moms-to-be should understand this feeling!^^). But once again, I know God knows the best for me and my family. He planned it all and He's working, no matter I see Him or not, and He always be there for us so I don't need to be worried bout a thing..
Blessings, everyone!
Showing posts with label experience. Show all posts
Showing posts with label experience. Show all posts
Monday, January 11, 2010
A New Beginning
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Desert Training
Once more, thank God for speaking to me through this devotional.
This devo has a really deep, deep meaning to me..
"O God, you are my God, earnestly I seek you; my soul thirsts for you, my body longs for you, in a dry and weary land where there is no water" (Ps. 63:1).
The desert holds a special place in God's Word. The Scriptures portray the desert as a place of inspiration and exaltation - a place where people met God in a powerful new way. King David wrote the 63rd Psalm while in exile in the Desert of Judah. He was hiding from his son Absalom, who wanted to replace him as king of Israel.
For Joseph, a deep pit in the desert was the first stop on a 13-year journey through desolation and despair. That 13-year desert experience served to break Joseph's self-will and self-confidence. It taught him that he could not control anything and that he needed to rely on God to manage the events in his life. Joseph's desert trial prepared him by scorching the youthful pride and arrogance out of his young life so that when he was 30 years old he could rule Egypt at Pharaoh's side in a spirit of humility and servant-hood.
Before becoming king of Israel, David was a shepherd. Part of his training for leadership involved hand-to-claw combat with the beasts of the wilderness, including the lion and the bear. Elijah learned the principles of spiritual leadership while in the wilderness of Gilead. And Jesus was tempted and tested for 40 days in the desert before He began to preach.
Perhaps God has given you a dream, but now it seems that your dream has withered and died under the scorching desert sun. It seems that God has gone away and is not listening to your prayers. But I want you to know that that your dream still lives. God is with you, even if you can't see Him, hear Him or sense His presence. He is preparing you in the desert.
*Devotional from Prime Time with God
Yeah.. feel like I've been being in the desert 'till now. But I realize that probably He's preparing me to do something purposeful in my life, which is greater than my dreams or even greater than my life.
So, be it unto me, Lord.
Let Thy will be done in me..
This devo has a really deep, deep meaning to me..
"O God, you are my God, earnestly I seek you; my soul thirsts for you, my body longs for you, in a dry and weary land where there is no water" (Ps. 63:1).
The desert holds a special place in God's Word. The Scriptures portray the desert as a place of inspiration and exaltation - a place where people met God in a powerful new way. King David wrote the 63rd Psalm while in exile in the Desert of Judah. He was hiding from his son Absalom, who wanted to replace him as king of Israel.
For Joseph, a deep pit in the desert was the first stop on a 13-year journey through desolation and despair. That 13-year desert experience served to break Joseph's self-will and self-confidence. It taught him that he could not control anything and that he needed to rely on God to manage the events in his life. Joseph's desert trial prepared him by scorching the youthful pride and arrogance out of his young life so that when he was 30 years old he could rule Egypt at Pharaoh's side in a spirit of humility and servant-hood.
Before becoming king of Israel, David was a shepherd. Part of his training for leadership involved hand-to-claw combat with the beasts of the wilderness, including the lion and the bear. Elijah learned the principles of spiritual leadership while in the wilderness of Gilead. And Jesus was tempted and tested for 40 days in the desert before He began to preach.
Perhaps God has given you a dream, but now it seems that your dream has withered and died under the scorching desert sun. It seems that God has gone away and is not listening to your prayers. But I want you to know that that your dream still lives. God is with you, even if you can't see Him, hear Him or sense His presence. He is preparing you in the desert.
*Devotional from Prime Time with God
Yeah.. feel like I've been being in the desert 'till now. But I realize that probably He's preparing me to do something purposeful in my life, which is greater than my dreams or even greater than my life.
So, be it unto me, Lord.
Let Thy will be done in me..
Saturday, June 27, 2009
A Little Suggestion for Parents
My goodness.. maybe this will be my most ridiculous post ever!
But, I keep pushing to write here. Just wanna share with you my suggestion about how parents should be. No, I don't have any certain purpose. I even have no children yet to give you an advice or two, I just want to speak out my insight as a child, not as a wonderful parent..
As a child, I was raised well, in fear and love of God. I have to admit it. But, sometime, I felt that my father was too hard pushing me to be discipline, ignoring that I was too young to understand what was taught to me.
My father was so temperamental. He wouldn't be 'hesitate' to punish his children if we made mistake. Yes, he would punished us, no matter how little mistake we did! I knew eventually that his intention was for our goodness. But, his way of punishing won't be vanishing from our memory (especially, me!). And, if I recall those moments, I can see that the way parents treat their children will impact the way the children see God.
If the parents raised their children in love and understanding, this will be the foundation for the children to know God. They will see God as love and full of understanding, just like the way they see their parents are! But, if the parents raised the children with careless, never forgive them, and always punish them, this also will be the basic doctrine the children learn about God. They will think that God is like their parents: careless, never forgive, cruel, and sort of it!
Yeah, this is my real experience. No, I've no intention to hurt anyone, especially my father (he is in peace in heaven right now!:)). But this is true. Probably, as parents you may not feel it. But, as a child, I knew it well. The way my parents treat me as a child built an image in my head about who God was and how His nature was. No matter how many times you told your children that God loves them, if you don't treat it that way to them, they won't feel it that way. Your actions speak louder than your speech..
Please, parents, watch out your attitude to your children. Preach will be nothing without actions. Don't let your children become like me, who learn many things about God from the way her parents treat her, and just found that her paradigm has definitely wrong right after she was already grown up. So it's a little uneasy to change it ..
Please, no offense. I am not judging anyone. I'm so sorry if I made mistake here. Please take this as a little reminder to you. Just share my experience, my friend..
Blessings!
But, I keep pushing to write here. Just wanna share with you my suggestion about how parents should be. No, I don't have any certain purpose. I even have no children yet to give you an advice or two, I just want to speak out my insight as a child, not as a wonderful parent..
As a child, I was raised well, in fear and love of God. I have to admit it. But, sometime, I felt that my father was too hard pushing me to be discipline, ignoring that I was too young to understand what was taught to me.
My father was so temperamental. He wouldn't be 'hesitate' to punish his children if we made mistake. Yes, he would punished us, no matter how little mistake we did! I knew eventually that his intention was for our goodness. But, his way of punishing won't be vanishing from our memory (especially, me!). And, if I recall those moments, I can see that the way parents treat their children will impact the way the children see God.
If the parents raised their children in love and understanding, this will be the foundation for the children to know God. They will see God as love and full of understanding, just like the way they see their parents are! But, if the parents raised the children with careless, never forgive them, and always punish them, this also will be the basic doctrine the children learn about God. They will think that God is like their parents: careless, never forgive, cruel, and sort of it!
Yeah, this is my real experience. No, I've no intention to hurt anyone, especially my father (he is in peace in heaven right now!:)). But this is true. Probably, as parents you may not feel it. But, as a child, I knew it well. The way my parents treat me as a child built an image in my head about who God was and how His nature was. No matter how many times you told your children that God loves them, if you don't treat it that way to them, they won't feel it that way. Your actions speak louder than your speech..
Please, parents, watch out your attitude to your children. Preach will be nothing without actions. Don't let your children become like me, who learn many things about God from the way her parents treat her, and just found that her paradigm has definitely wrong right after she was already grown up. So it's a little uneasy to change it ..
Please, no offense. I am not judging anyone. I'm so sorry if I made mistake here. Please take this as a little reminder to you. Just share my experience, my friend..
Blessings!
Experience God Every Day
I received this devo from Zondervan this afternoon.
And, omigosh.. it has something to shout out loudly to me, cause this was my true experience. This was what I did before I got back here. I lived, but I wasn't living. Oh, please, just read this devo..
Ugh, what do you say?
For me, I'll change my way of living.
Oh, thank God, for speaking so clearly to me..
Shew me Thy ways, o Lord,; teach me Thy paths.
Lead me in Thy truth, and teach me; for Thou art The God of my salvation: on Thee do I wait all the day..
Ps. 25:4,5
And, omigosh.. it has something to shout out loudly to me, cause this was my true experience. This was what I did before I got back here. I lived, but I wasn't living. Oh, please, just read this devo..
If we don't think about God, pray to God, listen for God's voice, and consciously serve God, by definition we live an ungodly life. We usually think of "ungodly" as being against God, but ungodly can also be a life that simply ignores God or — out of business, indifference, religiosity, or apathy — simply doesn't tap in to God. In this sense, it is possible to give an ungodly sermon that may be theologically accurate. It is possible to lead ungodly family devotions that nevertheless focus on spiritual truth. Christianity doesn't address only the ends; it has a lively interest in the means. That's why every healthy, growing believer should experience God every day — his presence, his power, his wisdom.
Ugh, what do you say?
For me, I'll change my way of living.
Oh, thank God, for speaking so clearly to me..
Shew me Thy ways, o Lord,; teach me Thy paths.
Lead me in Thy truth, and teach me; for Thou art The God of my salvation: on Thee do I wait all the day..
Ps. 25:4,5
Sunday, March 15, 2009
The Power of Crying Out
I am a real dog lover.
From them I've learned a lot about life. Friendship, loyalty, love, cheerfulness, happiness, even a new way of thinking and seeing something!
You may have known that dogs are loyal. There's no doubt about it. But more of it, I like the way they see everything around them. Dog lives in the present. They enjoy anything around them, without ever get worried about tomorrows. If you take your dog for a walk, you'll see that they are interested for everything. They like to smell the flowers, they like to investigate, they'll chase whatever gets their attention, the follow their instinct, they really live in the present!
Especially puppies. Puppies will take anything they've got as their toys. Anything. Whether it a comb, brush, pillow, tie, blanket, pencil, old newspaper, anything in this world are indeed a puppy's toys! We have a puppy here who likes to bite everything, including our hands and feet! It's waste to tidy up the room if you get your puppy there, because they'll easily find a way or two to screw it up again!
Like I say above, or if you read my posts before, you'll know that we found a puppy that we care for eventually. Her name is Velve. (I named her after the Spanish term 'vuelve' that means return, cause she has returned my cheerfulness -smile-). Oh my, I can't imagine a naughtier puppy than this one. Even my mom has sooo many scars because of her biting and nails' scratches on her hand. Oughh, sometime I feel that I want to put this tiny monster down, but every time I look at her face, I'll always feel a deep sympathetic. I love her so much, no matter how naughty she is.
Couple days ago, she cried out loudly. By hearing that, I immediately jumped out of my bed, ran to her and found out why did she scream like that. And I got my mom stood behind her, told me that she tried to 'escape' when my mom hold her with her hand (My mom got stroke so her left hand has been immovable), cause she wanted to open the door for somebody was there. It's too risky to let the puppy runs outside the house. And the result was, she fell down and got pain. My mom was incapable to handle her because of her 'actions' that were too much.
I realized that I always run out to get my dog anytime they cry. Sometime they cry for an uncomfortable situation, but other time, they cry for an unimportant thing because of their stupidities. But still, I'll get them immediately by hearing their screaming.
I assumed this experience with God. He can't help hearing our crying. I'm really sure that. What I dealt with dogs, I believe God will do likewise. He hurts when His people get hurt. He can't wait for answering our prayer, but sometime He delays. I know that He must have reasons for that. He won't do it incoincidently. History has proved it. Whenever God made a delay, He was doing a miracle. As time goes by, I started to see it in my life. The longer He delays, the bigger the miracle.
When Abram got his son, for example. Can you see the miracle there? A son from a 90 years conceived mother? Or when Jesus delayed to come to Bethany, when Lazarus was sick. What He did then? He raised him from the death! It wasn't enough for Him just to heal him. It was too ordinary. (But they needed something more hurt and bad in their circumstance to receive the miracle). If you are dealing with delaying, just believe that God's preparing a great thing for you. He'll reveal it when the time comes. He's keeping the answer till you're ready for that. So, get prepared for His surprise. He wants us to know Him in a new and better way than what we have known about Him.. Never be enough if it comes to knowing Him. We need to know Him more and more and more through our experiences..
Oh, please, I can't be preaching here :). Just want to share my experience. If my dog cries, I'll immediately get it, wherever it is. I'll never delay even a second to get 'em. I can imagine how's my God reaction if He deals with the same problem. He'll jump over to get you, my friend. So, don't be ashamed. Keep crying till your prayers get answered..
Happy Sundays, everyone..
From them I've learned a lot about life. Friendship, loyalty, love, cheerfulness, happiness, even a new way of thinking and seeing something!
You may have known that dogs are loyal. There's no doubt about it. But more of it, I like the way they see everything around them. Dog lives in the present. They enjoy anything around them, without ever get worried about tomorrows. If you take your dog for a walk, you'll see that they are interested for everything. They like to smell the flowers, they like to investigate, they'll chase whatever gets their attention, the follow their instinct, they really live in the present!
Especially puppies. Puppies will take anything they've got as their toys. Anything. Whether it a comb, brush, pillow, tie, blanket, pencil, old newspaper, anything in this world are indeed a puppy's toys! We have a puppy here who likes to bite everything, including our hands and feet! It's waste to tidy up the room if you get your puppy there, because they'll easily find a way or two to screw it up again!
Like I say above, or if you read my posts before, you'll know that we found a puppy that we care for eventually. Her name is Velve. (I named her after the Spanish term 'vuelve' that means return, cause she has returned my cheerfulness -smile-). Oh my, I can't imagine a naughtier puppy than this one. Even my mom has sooo many scars because of her biting and nails' scratches on her hand. Oughh, sometime I feel that I want to put this tiny monster down, but every time I look at her face, I'll always feel a deep sympathetic. I love her so much, no matter how naughty she is.
Couple days ago, she cried out loudly. By hearing that, I immediately jumped out of my bed, ran to her and found out why did she scream like that. And I got my mom stood behind her, told me that she tried to 'escape' when my mom hold her with her hand (My mom got stroke so her left hand has been immovable), cause she wanted to open the door for somebody was there. It's too risky to let the puppy runs outside the house. And the result was, she fell down and got pain. My mom was incapable to handle her because of her 'actions' that were too much.
I realized that I always run out to get my dog anytime they cry. Sometime they cry for an uncomfortable situation, but other time, they cry for an unimportant thing because of their stupidities. But still, I'll get them immediately by hearing their screaming.
I assumed this experience with God. He can't help hearing our crying. I'm really sure that. What I dealt with dogs, I believe God will do likewise. He hurts when His people get hurt. He can't wait for answering our prayer, but sometime He delays. I know that He must have reasons for that. He won't do it incoincidently. History has proved it. Whenever God made a delay, He was doing a miracle. As time goes by, I started to see it in my life. The longer He delays, the bigger the miracle.
When Abram got his son, for example. Can you see the miracle there? A son from a 90 years conceived mother? Or when Jesus delayed to come to Bethany, when Lazarus was sick. What He did then? He raised him from the death! It wasn't enough for Him just to heal him. It was too ordinary. (But they needed something more hurt and bad in their circumstance to receive the miracle). If you are dealing with delaying, just believe that God's preparing a great thing for you. He'll reveal it when the time comes. He's keeping the answer till you're ready for that. So, get prepared for His surprise. He wants us to know Him in a new and better way than what we have known about Him.. Never be enough if it comes to knowing Him. We need to know Him more and more and more through our experiences..
Oh, please, I can't be preaching here :). Just want to share my experience. If my dog cries, I'll immediately get it, wherever it is. I'll never delay even a second to get 'em. I can imagine how's my God reaction if He deals with the same problem. He'll jump over to get you, my friend. So, don't be ashamed. Keep crying till your prayers get answered..
Happy Sundays, everyone..
Monday, March 09, 2009
Story of Rejection
Since Facebook has become the biggest social network on internet, everybody seems to have an account there. I have to admit that Facebooking is something fun, because you can meet your old friend, your school mate, or anybody around the world you want to befriend with just by a click! Beside, it's also addicting. You can't blame one if he/she becomes addicted to FB, because yeah, it is addicting indeed. We seem to be part of world's citizens by becoming a member of Facebook. We'll know and be known. We can update our status and will be very excited if we get comments from our pals around the world. Facebook does make this world a global village! We can update our friend's latest news simply by one click. Wow.. isn't it a little magic of this modern civilization?
The bad news is, you can remove any of your friend from being your friend. It's your absolute right to choose who you want to befriend with and who you don't want to. You can approve one and ignore other. It's your choice. And, FB guarantees that the network won't publish if you reject someone's request to be your friend. Because, to be honest, it would be so embarrasing if others know that someone does it to you!
Being rejected has never been fun. Even, it really hurts. But in this real world, we'll face this hurting fact. There will be times we'll get rejection from our friend, even removing or denying attitude that we're one's friend. One may not approve your request to be his or her friend. And it's for real. (Oh, yeah, I've gone through this bitter experience! Can't imagine why one rejects your request to be his/ her friend. In fact, we just want to befriend in cyber world!).
But, through this thing I've got a new insight, that we can't count on anyone to keep us smiling. We can't count on other's approvement to make us happy. They can be unkind to us, they can remove us from their list. They can reject our request to be their friend, but we can hold on one truth that in Jesus we'll never be ignored nor rejected. He'll never leave us nor forsake us. He cares for us. He loves us just the way we are, and He accepts us as we are. What a friend we have in Him!
If you ever get rejection, remember that you're not alone. Many people feel the same as you feel. All you can do is simply come to your God, Best Friend, dearest Saviour and Reedemer, because He offers Himself to be your refugee in your hard times. Even, He opens His hands to call us, 'come unto Me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest..' (Matt 11:28). For He dwells in the high and holy place, with Him also that is of contrite and humble spirit (Is 57:15). And The Lord is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart, and saveth such as be of a contrite spirit (Ps 34:18).
Have you ever requested Him to be your friend? Or, have you befriended with Him in your real life?
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