Monday, February 09, 2009

Equality with God?

This is a devotional from Anchor Your Life, which had greatly blessed me this evening..

"You shall have no other gods before me." (NIV) Exodus 20:3

The first commandment is pretty easy to understand. There can only be one God, one true God the all knowing, all powerful, all present, creator of the earth. Doesn't it seem ridiculous when we think we can actually be God? If the truth be told, many of us spend the better part of our lives trying to be God instead of just letting God be God. We manipulate, we question, we judge and we try to control people and events in an effort to make things happen our way...or at least making things happen the way we think it should.

When have you tried to manipulate a situation so that the outcome is what you desire? How do you try to control people or events so that the life goes the way you want it to go? How are you attempting to be the god of your life?

Say the first commandment as a prayer and let God be God.

There Must Be Something To Be Thankful For In Life!


After what I've been going through, I supposed that what I've to do is looking for anything good, positive and 'enlightened' in order to get a meaningful life..

Yeah, I believe that we all have a story to tell. Even, maybe a great story if we can see it from the right perspective. All stories we have aren't coincident, but happen for a certain personal purpose. I try to look for goodness in my life. I know I'll find it whenever I look for it. I think, life will be more precious and meaningful if what we can do is giving thanks for anything happens in our lives. Yeah, we just see the small part and feel sorry about anything, because we can't see the big picture. Sometime we can't see how close we are to our destination and we'll start to give up (Oh, this is really happening to me!).

I want to get a breakthrough with my old life. I want to change my mind, my way of thinking, my way of feeling, and oh, all the bad habits I've been living with! I want to be more grateful, be sincere, and look for anything good, with Christ's cross on the background. Hope that this new way of living will change my life: from zero to hero :).

Know what, sometime I feel that my hubby's right when he said that I'd apparently have a double personality. Yeah, in a moment I try to save the world, and one moment later, feel that I wanna take drugs! Seriously. You can consider me wise whenever I'm good, but when it comes to be insane, my name will be included in the nomination list. Often think that I have a mental disorder or sort of it!:)

For this BYBS, I want to thankful for my husband. He's such a great husband. He always understands me, loves me for everything I am, and the amazing one, He always willingly shares the chores with me. And all he's been doing is great! Oh, I think I can't get a greater husband than him. He's the best one!
I know there are times for disagreements in us, just like every couple, but it's normal. We've been different from the first time we met! So I have to see the good side of him. We both have to see the good side of us each other. Oh, I wonder how come I often forget how amazing, adorable and lovely husband he is!

I'm thankful for my mom. Although we haven't been 'getting along' in many ways, I think I still have to honor and respect her. It's uneasy. She's my mom and I always hope 'something more' or any best thing from her as my role model. When I didn't get it, I'd be disappointed. But finally, I know I can't change anyone. If I have someone to change, so that one is me, no other. I have to let everybody be themselves, cause I neither can let myself be anybody else (Yeah, we like to 'insist' people to take our own ways. In fact, we are really different. We'll get angry if other people don't be the same with us! We hope everybody understands us because we think they've got the way we're thinking! Ooohhh... actually, who the hell we are! :)). This is something so hard to learn but I finally got it!

I am thankful, among all things, for life I've got from God, who granted it to me with no doubt. And it's my responsibility then to take care for it, keep it good, amazing and pleasant to Him, from whom the blessings come.

And I consider myself blessed!

How thankful are you?

Wednesday, February 04, 2009

Define 'Happiness'!

People always says that happiness depends on how we see it.
Yeah, they may right. We can look for faults from our surrounding and find them. So do with good things. If we look for them, we'll find them. Yeah, our world is what we make it.

One of the best book I ever read about happiness was 'Follow Your Heart' by Andrew Matthews. Have you read that book? Oh, it's so inspiring. I highly recommend it for those we are looking for something meaningful in their lives.

Check out these cartoons ..

"They're not happy. They just think they're happy..''


or this one..
Yeah, you got it. Sometime we consider that happiness is something bigger than ourselves, something more important than we've already get, or something 'too high to reach' for most of us, so we have to do something, reach something, own something or pursue something in order to get it.

In fact, deep down in our hearts we know that it's not the big deal. Happiness isn't something we can get by having certain condition, being happy is a situation we can make it - depends on how we choose to see our life..

(oh, please, I won't tell you a lot about happiness. You've read my last posts and knew how was my condition -lol- but I want to share with all of you how a great idea can change our mind. And by changing our mind, we can change our world. Ever consider that?)




People who call themselves “lucky” smile more, talk to more people, make more friends and persist more often – which proves its not luck
-Andrew Matthews-

Yeah, and from now on, I'll choose to be happy.. :)
God bless us, everyone!

Pictures: www.seashell.com.au

Tuesday, February 03, 2009

Saved By A Puppy!

Well, you may have read my last post. Maybe that was the truest feeling I’ve ever shared with all of you. Oh, to be honest, I couldn’t be that honest speaking out my deepest feeling in my native language :). (For I am so introvert so it’s not my ‘habit’ to share my deepest feeling with someone!).

In my darkest situation, when all was blurred, I was out of my mind, couldn’t think, couldn’t feel, couldn’t say anything, when my heart was empty and yeah.. when I intended to suicide.. (I really meant it!), you know what God did? He sent me a puppy! Yes, a puppy. Can you imagine that?

I felt that I can’t open my eyes that evening. I just lied down on my bed with empty feeling. Broken. Depressed. Devastated. I cried and cried and still felt empty. Hopeless. Desperate.

Suddenly, my husband entered the room and whispered to my ear ‘Kris, open your eyes’.

‘No, I won’t. I can’t’, I replied.

‘Please, look at what I got for you.. Please..’, he insisted.

I opened my eyes and what did I see? A puppy. Very tiny, cute, scared and looked so desperate. I had no idea where that puppy came from. She just looked so scared, sad and miserable.

‘Whose puppy is it?’ I asked him.

‘I don’t know..’, he replied.

‘Where do you get it?’ I asked him again.

‘I don’t know. A little boy (who lives in our neighborhood) just came over and asked whether this is our puppy. He found it was entering his house. He’s never seen this puppy before. He had asked around this neighborhood but nobody knows, so he thought probably she’s ours and take her here..’.

Oohh..

(FYI, people hates dog here, commonly because of their belief , so it’s so rare if one would have dog here, mostly in our neighborhood).

I just woke up, looked at the puppy carefully, and immediately fell in love with her (oh, yes, I’m a dog lover!). ‘So sad.. Let me take care of her..’.

‘You sure?’ my husband asked me in doubt, not to forget the moment I was histerically cried few minutes ago.

‘Yeah, I’m sure..’. Magically, my misery, depression and all kinda worst feeling was vanished, changed by love and compassion for that puppy.

I put her in my embrace, seeing that she was so scared and shy, and found myself was deep in love with her.

Well, maybe this is just a simple and ridiculous story I’ve ever told you, but it was true. I just thought, may that puppy was sent by God to calm me down? Or to remove my depression? Yeah, I have no idea. But one thing I’m sure, that my Heavenly Father has definitely never forsakes me. He always be there for me, works for my goodness, whether I could see Him or not, and, He works in His misterios ways. I may not understand, but what I’ve to do is just trusting Him with all my heart.

Yeah, like a quote I ever read, ‘something commonly gets worse before it gets better’.. In this way, I probably should develop a new relationship with God. I don’t get

His plan, but I understand that He can use anything to get me improving a deeper understanding of His ways..

This idea was just came across my mind: If only God sent me a person or two, I might refuse them. But, He knows the best. He sent me a puppy (that I’ve never got the idea where she came from till now), so I just threw away my misery and filled my heart with love for her instead.

Oh, my.. this was something unthinkable but really, really worked for me..

Have you ever faced something more ridiculous –but worked for you- than my story? :)


Oh, before I forget, I’m really thankful for getting so sweet, reminding and encouraging comments from my dear friends, Fishhawk and Cybercelt. Thank you so much. Your words were so helping. I’m really appreciate that. God bless y’all, my friend. Thank you for being God’s blessing for me..

Am getting better now. Relieved, recovered and blessed.

Unto God be all the praises and honor and glory..