... And The Journey Has Begun!

Okay. I'm a little bit confused here about the timing calculation of pregnancy. When I googling to find any useful info due to the pregnancy, I found that the calculation is started from the first day of my last period, so by the time I got the positive pregnancy test (3 weeks after fertilization), I considered to be 5 weeks pregnant. So now, when I consider myself to be 5 weeks pregnant, I should be 7 weeks pregnant. Oh my.. so confusing, isn't it?

I start to consider eating as a chore. Always feel hungry! At first weeks I couldn't eat a lot. I would feel uncomfortable by then so I have to cut off my normal portion. I would eat just a half portion. A little but often. But now, I seem to be a monster that eats any kind of food!! -LOL-.

Although exercise is good for mom-to-be, still I'm afraid. Besides I'm an exercise hater, I'm also afraid that the exercise will hurt the baby (at least, that's my opinion!).

The weather is unpredictable here, so it's so hard to find sunlight to get sunbathed in the morning. These past weeks, the sky has always been cloudy, especially in the morning. I don't even know whether it's summer or rainy here. Sometime it's hot, and just in a little while, the sky turns cloudy, and suddenly the rain falls down.

According to babycenter.com, at this week, the baby has doubled in size since last week and now measures half an inch long, about the size of blueberry. Can you imagine it? Honestly I can't. For me, it's too difficult to imagine, but it reminds me of some verses from Psalm 139:

¹³ For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.

¹⁴ I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.

¹⁵ My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,

¹⁶ your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.

Psalm 139:13-16, NIV

Yes, I praise God because I am fearfully and wonderfully made, the same way He does with the baby in my womb. He makes this little creature in the secret place -inside my body- even without any intervention of mine! How wonderful it is..

I am good, feeling fine, but I'm sad that so far, my hubby is the one who so often gets sick. Here in Indonesia, pregnant women used to yearn for some kind of food along the pregnancy. It's called 'mengidam' or 'ngidam' here. My hubby had promised me a long, long time before I got pregnant that he will be ngidam when I get pregnant, so I don't need to be busy preparing or 'fighting' for the food I'm yearning for (especially if I should ngidam in the midnight). So maybe that's why he gets sick and I'm fine.. :) I hope he gets well soon and everything goes better everyday.

Yeah.. the journey has begun and I am trying to enjoy every single moment of it..

A New Beginning

You know what, I've just found that I am... pregnant!!!

Yeah, if you know me in person, you might know that I'm not someone who really desires a baby. My first two years of marriage was filled by all the questions about the baby, and it completely drove me crazy!

I don't know how my feeling was when I got the fact that I got pregnant. Happy, sad, confused, and in between.. Yeahh.. I'm happy because this is such a gift. But I'm sad and confused at once because many dreams won't be achieved immediately. But yeah, however, I'll take this as a great blessing from God. So many couples yearn to have a child but for many reasons, they can't. So I have to be thankful, right? :)

One thing I also am thankful for is that I got no morning sickness or anything sort of that. I am healthy and I am feeling good, have no big changes on my body, even till I often ask myself 'Do I really pregnant?' hahaha. Just make sure..

Honestly, this is one of unexpected things I find in my journey. But I try to have no regret in life. Whatever happens in my life, happens for a reason. So I can stand still and keep walking however the circumstance is.

Please pray for me, friends. It's a new experience for me. I am really newbie in this! I've never imagined myself being pregnant but I am ready for what will happen. Although me and my hubby hadn't planned this child yet, but I'm sure God has planned it even before we did. Sometime I worry about things relating to this pregnancy (most of moms-to-be should understand this feeling!^^). But once again, I know God knows the best for me and my family. He planned it all and He's working, no matter I see Him or not, and He always be there for us so I don't need to be worried bout a thing..

Blessings, everyone!